feeling down and out

iam on my phone, so please excuse grammatical errors. i have no new updates and i am stressed. im laying in bed and my cysts on my right side are bugging me. it feels as if firecrackers are going off in my ovaries. awesome. other than that, i feel like i am going through a bout of depression. i am irritable, too tired somedays and others i am not tired at all, i am being pessimistic and today and for a good part of the last seven to ten days, i didnt get dressed for the day. i have no motivation. is some of it from pcos? im sure. is some from feeling alone? sure. is this new? nope. ive battled with my good friend depression for a while. i was winning for some time, but looks like shes catching up again. damn her. my body has been aching all over too...depression, stress, nerves, laziness??? i dont have a clue. i see my dr for a check up next thursday. of course nobody has called about me going to the reproductive endocrinologist yet...im getting pissed. my dr in kentucky would have had that shit done with in days...ive been waiting since late october here. i didnt get a referral for mental health, everyone is booked up for over six months. i can go on post, and maybe i need to. dr knows best...or so they think. but im starting to agree. i will update after my appt next week.