Dr Appt

On Friday, I had my last Dr appt with Dr Sawyer (OBGYN). I got all of my hormone test results back and well, everything was fine, except my progesterone. My hormone tests actually looked better than last year. Last year, they were within normal limits, but on the higher sides, this year, they are lower, on the mid-high average. My testosterone has decreased the most, and my thyroid level went down a little (I don't and haven't had any problems with it). What concerned me, was my A1C test. It was within normal limits, but it was VERY VERY near of being over....I'm talking like 0.7 away from being over the normal range. That is a diabetes test for those who do not know. YIKES! She didn't seem concerned, but I am. I will be getting that rechecked when we get to New York. As for my progesterone levels, she wouldn't do anything because she would rather me see a Reproductive Endocrinologist and I am leaving...but that is my BIG problem. I will continue to not be able to get pregnant, will have irregular periods, and other issues until that is fixed.

Now as for the pain in my left, lower abdomen....Dr Sawyer believes it was probably a cyst or possible ovulation, more than likely a cyst because Friday, I started another period! I just ended one on Sept 14th UGH!!!!!! I had this problem at the SAME time of the year last year. She said it's probably from not ovulating. I am so confused because I go regular periods since my issue with this last year until I took that Clomid in August. She gave me Provera (medroxyprogesterone) to stop the period. I will take that for 10 days and then I will start another period shortly after and should be "reset". Let's see what happens. I'm so frustrated.

It's been awhile

I noticed it has been awhile since I have posted last. First, I ended up not taking the Provera or Clomid. I know this sounds selfish, but it interfered with my trip to Florida! I did NOT want those side effects while I was vacationing, in Tropical Storm Lee. I did end up starting a period on Sept 10-Sept 14. That is the usual time frame that I would have one, so it was confusing to me of why I skipped August and went to normal in September, but whatever. TODAY, however, I am spotting again. WTF! If I WAS ovulating, I should be doing it now, but the past would say I am not and I don't think most people spot. Tomorrow, I go back to Dr Sawyer (OBGYN) for a follow up on my hormone tests. I wonder how that's going to go. Also, over the past week or so I have had some burning sensations and pain in my left lower abdomen, which I think is a cyst. I have not had that before and follows suit of a cyst. I am hoping we are able to find out tomorrow if it is/was a cyst. Other times they thought I may have a cyst, it was too late, so I have never had a documented cyst. Remember, you do not have to have cysts to have PCOS. I know, weird, but there is a lot to this dumb, awful disease, and as long as you have a few of the symptoms in the "syndrome" and they can rule out anything else, it's PCOS. Well, I will update after my appointment tomorrow. I guess I better think of a good excuse to tell Dr Sawyer why I did not take the Clomid and Provera LOL.

Update and Another Dr Appt

Update from the last appt with Dr Sawyer:
I did not take the Provera, nor the Clomid. I just really am dreading those Clomid side effects and I really did not want to have them while we went to Florida and next week I am having some friends from out of state come and don't really want to have them then either. Dr Sawyer is going to be mad, but whatever. I think I am just going to wait until we get to New York to restart all of the fertility med stuff. I also believe I am about to start a period on my own, which is great and what I was hoping for.

Today I went to Dr Merced, my PCM. I just love her and I am sad that I can't take her with me LOL. She is so wonderful. She took an hour out of her busy schedule and sat and talked with me. She too has had fertility issues. She has a 6 year old son that she had with no problems and she had tried since then for another baby, but no luck. She shared her story of Clomid, all other medications, IUI and IVF, all of them failed her and her family. Now, she never said what she had, I know it is not PCOS, but that doesn't matter, she too has felt the struggles. She was telling me how nobody ever thinks a doctor will have to go through that, but they do. Fertility issues are a big deal to her and she took her time to talk to me about hers. It meant a lot to me, and although I felt bad for taking the time of other patients, I appreciated her story and her comfort. She is, by the way, the first person to ever think I had PCOS and then diagnosed it. She also is the only person who suggested that I may terrible allergies and some other issues, and those all I did/do have.

Anyways, I updated her on everything that has been going on and about the herbal supplements and that my anxiety is sky high. She gave me the go ahead on the herbal supplements and said they would be fine and she had tried some as well. She also suggested that maybe sometime I try acupuncture, I actually told John I wanted to try that the other day for the PCOS, but also my anxiety! Well today I came home with some more medications. I was put back on Zyrtec and Astelin nose spray. I am having some serious allergy and sinus issues. I also am battling with some terrible anxiety and the Klonopin is not cutting it. I do not want to increase my Klonopin dosage, as I would love to be off of it, so she too suggested Wellbutrin, so I now have that as well. She could tell I was anxious and think it will help take the edge off. She also noticed some signs of depression, which I have battled with for years, so this will help that as well. It will not be the first time I have taken an antidepressant and I am sure it will not be the last. It runs in my family and when I was 19 I was diagnosed with Dysthymia (when I was diagnosed I was told it was depression caused by anxiety). Some people also think I am a Hypochondriac, and maybe I am to an extent, but it stems from the anxiety. PCOS and Dysthymia have nothing to do with eachother, but PCOS and depression do. I just keep tying pieces of my past together and things are coming together. Maybe I do not have Dysthymia, maybe my depression episodes are caused by PCOS. I guess we will never exactly know.


*In 2006 I was diagnosed with Dysthymia by a Behavioral Therapist after a battery of different tests. I did very poorly my first year of college and just let go of all reality. I was "messed up". I did not want medication at first and finally one day asked my mom to please let me go to a psychologist, it was a great decision. I have posted a link to some information on Dysthymia.
http://www.webmd.com/depression/guide/chronic-depression-dysthymia