Ultrasound results...

And so it begins...I have developed cysts. 2 small ones on my left ovary and one very small one on my right ovary. As I thought this was probably what was happening from the weird things I've been feeling and what my OBGYN in KY thought, I still wasn't ready to hear it. To be diagnosed with PCOS and not have cysts, is usually uncommon, but does happen, but now they've shown their ugly faces. I guess I've been lucky to go this long without developing and hopefully, because they will continue to develop, they will develop very slowly and very few at time. Well at least my pain, burning, cramping, and twinges I have been getting since about July have been real and not figment of my imagination, like some people have told me. What I have learned, is YOU always know your body better than anyone else. Although my anxiety may make me think a simple headache is something much worse, I can usually talk myself out of that. With this, I knew I wasn't crazy. It's just hard to soak it in at the moment!

That wasn't encouraging...

Well I had my appt today at Dr Beane's office. I did not see her, I saw a different provider because Dr Beane is on vacation...her name is Kathy and she is a nurse practitioner. Kathy was nice, but I feel like NOBODY can figure out what is REALLY the issue with my body. All of my blood work came back just fine. My cholesterol is now elevated a little though, LOVELY, my blood sugar was a little high for fasting for over 12 hours and my testosterone level dropped from 57 to 22 in 2 months. Kathy also said my LH (Lutenizing Hormone, another ovulation hormone) was 14, ovulation occurs at between 14-92. She said I could have ovulated about 7 days after that...but I am on that birth control, so I doubt it. No progesterone was taken, so we don't really know the scoop on that. She was pleased with all of my blood work though, so I guess that is good. BUT my ultrasound results were missing. They weren't in the computer and weren't in paper form anywhere. They called back over to get them, so someone is supposed to call me in a couple days about them. I was a little pissed off about that because I want to know what, if anything, was seen.

Now I am supposed to be going to behavioral health. WTF!? She had asked if I had ever been and I said I had been a couple times because of my anxiety issues, but never asked if I would like to go and well I guess I have to...I think I should go if I want to. I don't have issues going, but I've been before and "talking" with someone only helps for the few days afterwards...so maybe I need long term help...but it made me feel like they think I am psycho or suicidal or something. Maybe I just am not understanding and taking it out of proportion.

As for the Reproductive Endocrinologist, I have no idea when I am supposed to go. Apparently, tricare is supposed to approve me to go. Well yes, but it doesn't take this long because I have had many referrals processed in a week and gotten appt dates. I am sure the appt won't be for at least a few months, but why hasn't it been set up? She didn't really know, so I will be calling tricare tomorrow to see if anything has even been put thru to them. I may switch to a different tricare option called, Martin's Point. We shall see.

So, I really do not have any updates...I am pretty upset because once again, I am sitting here not knowing wtf is going on and feeling like nobody gives a shit. Maybe behavioral health, if anything, will help me get thru this. All I want is a damn answer on how can PCOS be overridden for a short time..WHAT ARE MY OPTIONS? I am super frustrated. I go back to her on the 15th of Dec...yippee.

a little rant

i am updating from my phone...tomorrow i go back to dr beanes office to get a pap and my bloodwork and ultrasound results. i will update when i get home...hopefully i will have more news about going to syracuse. tonight i read something that made me want to choke someone. a girl on a debate page claims a miscarriage is the same thing as an abortion. huh???? she said if you are going to call someone who had an abortion a murderer, you must also call someone who had a miscarriage the same thing, if you believe abortion is murder. first off, yes, a miscarriage is technically called a spontaneous abortion, but is far different than a clinical abortion...what a dumb ass. she was being theortic about the murderer name calling, she is pro choice and has had one of each...you can believe what you want. if youre pro choice, fine...pro life fine...i dont care. but a miscarriage is very different. but she kept going on about how they are no different from eachother and i dont get how someone can think that. maybe im the wrong one here, but for someone who works in the medical field, which she claimed to do, i feel that maybe she needs to go back and look up what both mean and decide again. my tolerance for ignorance gets lower with age. as for me, i am pro neither. i prefer to see people do the pro life thing, but sometimes it isnt ideal for everyone, i guess. that is as far as i will go with that.